I honestly wanted to have a group of gifted writers, with a common ideology, that could unite us and bring about “change”. A Unity/ Community, something to strive for, a vision of a better future than reality of the day to day that we are exposed to now. I know it must seem naive, but it’s my dream, my vision. I have met wonderful, talented, energetic souls along the way, and for that…I am forever greatful. At the moment, my heart is heavy. I’m not even sure that I have not fooled myself into believing in a pipedream. I just know, that there are a Lot of other poetry groups, yes poetry groups. Write a poem, and share it to a group that maybe one person acknowledges if your Lucky. I just checked out a few groups prior to writing this, and in three groups over thirty people’s voices were shared, and silently left completely neglected, abandoned, left for nought on the page….. And I asked myself, “why”? Why bother sharing posting, giving pieces of yourself away, only to be neglected, virtually rejected, and ignored along the way?
I’m sorry, but I don’t find that fulfilling in any sense of the word. Isn’t the reason to write to make someone feel, maybe escape, or have experience, to share! To write is also to answer the calling within you. To express yourself, explore who you are, to yourself, to others. It’s creating worlds, belief in MagicK, finding yourself in another time and era. To live, and create lives with others voices, paint landscapes, city night sky lines, the potential of ideas, creations, feelings to share is virtually limitless!
My fear, and I’m being absolutely honest with you, is that This group, ends up a pointless poetry group. Frankly, one of hundreds that don’t matter, that make no difference, or have a Greater scope of vision……..
That is what it will become, and in the end, it’s up to you, as members (if anyone has read this much) will make it.
I understand that I can’t make it be more than what it is, if there is no participation, or desire. I TRULY want Success for Each and everyone of you! That is My desire, but…. You, don’t need me to accomplish that. That is Your journey. Maybe I’ve been fooling myself that there was a BIGGER picture, that we All were answering The Calling, silent voices carried on the winds, muses, inspirations, the desire for Each of us to support each Other……..
I BELIEVE In The Calling. I cannot un-hear, what I’ve found to be my purpose. I truly hope and desire that you, others, will continue to join me. I honestly feel, in my heart of hearts, the need and desire for change. Throughout history, it hasn’t been guns, insurrections, fighting, or rebellions that have change the direction of humanity…. But it’s been Art. Humans desire to overcome the hardest conditions, toughest of political and social situations, by expressing themselves, creating, re-invisioning new tomorrow’s, better times, better conditions to live in, for themselves, and their children, and future generations.
I’d like to finish by saying that I also appreciate personal space, personal freedom, personal choices, and do not want to encroach upon “The Personal”. Maybe we can take a moment of personal prayer what have you, that I, we, have Here, does not become just another mundane, un-driven ego-fest, where people write only to write, or not aspiring for a higher purpose, but are left, wanking in the wind.
*(matthew bowers)* ~93
The House of Raven 🐦⬛ 